Someone asked me today how I overcame all my self sabotaging habits? (which were many) My answer below…
“At first overcoming my self sabotage (drugs, booze, steroids, bad food, bad company, wasteful spending, materialism etc) was powered by hate. The hate I had for the system because it lied to me, abused me, traumatized me and enslaved me from the first day I arrived on this planet. It took me awhile to connect the dots but when I did, I was more than a little upset. From PTSD circumcision to toxic vaccination and from indoctrination based schooling to slave based job focus………I was pretty angry. The reality was, I was always engulfed with hate but I never really knew why. I never knew why I was so mad and I used that hate energy in my youth to destroy myself. I turned my frustration inward and was within a couple years of putting myself into an early grave. Then one day I figured, “why not just do the opposite? Instead of wrecking yourself, why not dedicate every minute of your life to saving yourself? You’re going to die anyway…….why not see how great you can become instead of seeing what a human mess you can be?” What could I potentially become if I read, researched, ate healthy, exercised and took myself seriously………as opposed to doing the exact opposite?
Evil was always watching me, laughing, pointing, grinning, knowing that I had great potential….and that evil enjoyed seeing me destroy myself, as I was programmed to do by every evil system already firmly entrenched on this mental asylum of a planet. Then one day I looked up at that evil and showed it a little trick I learned, as a model apprentice of the darkness. A greater red hot and self destructive anger, evil had rarely seen. So when I put on my white magic sorcerer’s cap and put down my black magic wand……..evil gulped loudly, started to back up very slowly and said, “oh, shit….he’s turned to the other side”. And ever since that day, I’ve made it my personal responsibility to be the best I can possibly be, simply because I have grown to understand exactly what’s needed to drive back the darkness, which destroys so many good people on this planet. I just switched teams. True story.”
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