When I come home from a hard day, I don’t sedate to the pain. I don’t turn on the TV, pour a glass of wine, roll a joint, smoke a cigarette, do a line, drink a coffee, pop a pill, call my doctor or plow myself full of sedative junk food. I sit there and take in my frustration, my fatigue, my helplessness and my disappointment in the cycle of futility we’ve all been tricked into participating in. A sit there and let the pain train run me over and then I let it back up and run me over again. I want to feel every ounce of what’s really going on. I then use that pain to my advantage and that’s the big secret.
If you don’t feel your pain, you don’t move and you never change. Sedative addictions are about disconnecting from the part of yourself that knows change is needed. Addiction is the act of self murdering the best part of ourselves. The healthier I get, the more I can’t stand my pain, so I use that tension energy inside my healthy body to actually change and do something about how I’m feeling…….instead of sitting in my jail cell pretending everything is OK and decorating my jail cell with more stuff, so it doesn’t look so much like a prison. Every day when I get home from work (and I put 100% effort into my work as well) I rush toward finishing my audio coaching series on overcoming self sabotage, I learn a little Greek every night and I’m seeking a lawyer in Athens to pursue my Greek citizenship. Self sabotage is the process by which you don’t have enough time or energy to live the life you want because you’re too busy living the life you don’t want. If you want to break out of Shawshank Prison, step #1 is to get healthy and remove all sedation and distraction from your life. Swim in your pain, dive deep, don’t get out, soak it all in. After that, you’ll gain the motivation to make a move on your best life. One life. One time at bat. Swing for the fences. You were born to do great things. Use baby steps. Start today.
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