The inner saboteur loves the game of “one step forward and one step back”, because that way you never change. Change is the enemy of the saboteur yet the subconscious must give the conscious mind enough rope to hang itself, to fool it into believing that the conscious mind is in control……..when it’s not. This is what happens exactly when you have a great day of healthy eating and then you get a massive craving for just one cookie after dinner…….but you jam three cookies into your mouth in 10 seconds and then regret it immediately. That’s the subconscious mind using you as a play toy. The subconscious mind started to see you changing and quickly understood the danger of that (inside a society that punishes anyone who becomes better or more), so the subconscious steps in and makes sure to put the brakes on, to keep you safe from attack. That’s the odd thing about the subconscious, it’s actually trying to protect you from the herd of mediocrity who will attack you for rising up to your full potential. An odd cycle indeed. There are ways to overcome this cycle of futility and stagnation of course…and that’s what a good self sabotage coach is for.